I am not a doctor for a reason

adenoidectomy

pansinusitis

bilateral osteomeatal complexes

opacification and mucoperiosteal thickening

bilateral maxillary, ethmoid, sphenoid, and frontal sinuses

septal deviation

osteomeatal complexes

balloon sinuplasty

anesthesia

scoliosis

osteogenesis imperfecta, type I

blue sclera

manubrium sterni

virtreous syneresis

posterior vitreous detachment

retinal hemorrhage

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Above are some of the medical words that have been tossed at me in the past two weeks. Do not be alarmed: Not all are regarding the same person!  These terms have been discussed recently for myself, my daughter, and Z.

I could never be a nurse or doctor. Definitely not a phlebotomist. You see, paper cuts make me woozy. Talking about medical issues can make my head spin.  The other day I felt as though I may pass out when my daughter had her spine aligned at the chiropractor.

Yet at many of these doctor visits lately, the doctors want me to be hands-on … and eyes-on. They want me to look in the scope at my son’s sinuses.  They want me to feel my daughter’s vertebrae. They show me the culture swab before sending it out to the lab. Ummmm, no thank you and please stop it already!

So I’m not medically talented, at all. Yet I have been bombarded with medical terms and issues lately and it’s at the point of being much too much. On top of desperately wanting my children to be fixed and healthy again, I don’t know how much more I can take of all the medical mumbo jumbo. My head and my stomach are churning and swirling and STOP THE SHIP I WANT TO GET OFF!

But I’m a mom to children who need medical attention. One needs surgery (Z) and that involves needles and blood and medicines (which in Z’s case also involves vomit) and all that stuff that I’m not good at. Yet I have to be. Or at least, I have to fake it.

With motherhood comes the good, the bad, and the ugly. Ain’t that the truth. My children are the good. Health problems are the bad. And me, moments after I’m given a scope to view the inside of my child’s sinuses, is the ugly.

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*Note: Not all of the terms and conditions listed above are currently happening (the eye issues were my problem years ago and came back up recently to be checked again — though we don’t believe an immediate problem exists), and some of those conditions (OI and scoliosis) are being tested for but likely not the case.